In the week or so that I’ve been here I’ve had to remind myself of a few things. First being the “New York attitude.” You know, the sometimes brash and aggressive demeanor. Frankly, the attitude of people is just not as warm and friendly as I’m used to at home. However, like a lot of things about my time so far in the city, this change is not bad, just different.
The unpredictable work hours and a schedule that changes every day and every week. Not bad, just different.
Having a small kitchen that makes me want to eat out every night. Not bad, just different. Well, maybe bad for my wallet…
The state of utter exhaustion and satisfaction after a long day out in the city (working or exploring). Not bad, just different.
The fact that doing laundry and grocery shopping, which once took no energy, now require a lot of time and effort. Not bad, just different.
Having mixed feelings of excitement, homesickness, adventure and confusion. Not bad, just different.
Feeling simultaneously hopeful and nervous about my future and plans post graduation. Not bad, just different.
Having a conflicting desire to push my comfort zone while still wanting comfort. Not bad, just different.
Honesty hour: there are a bunch of things I wish I could change about my life here, albeit temporary, to make it more comfortable (literally and metaphorically speaking). Of all people I know it’s hard to look on the bright side and this week has been both a change and challenge from my norm. Don’t get me wrong, there are a lot of things I love about my stay here so far (expect a post next week on those) but this is real life, and not everything is perfect.
However, just because something is new or different or foreign or uncomfortable DOES NOT mean it’s bad. It could be that cliché roadblock that will make you stronger or an obstacle leading to personal growth. Whatever it is, give it a chance.
Whatever it is and whatever may arise, I am going to give it a chance.