Have you ever asked yourself “why is this happening to me?” Or maybe you speak Friends (like me) and instead scream “why do bad things happen to good people?!” a la Ross’ shampoo incident.
Either way, I’m sure you’ve asked the question.
I’ll admit, I’m quick to play the victim in any situation. I dwell on the bad while dismissing any good that may squeak into the picture. Throughout this past year I’ve been told (multiple times) that everything happens for a reason. Deep down I truly believe that…I think I’ve written about it before! However, in the midst of a low point, that phrase annoys the crap out of me. It can get to the point when I say “so, what IS meant to be? Can I just have that now? I promise, I’ll be good.”
I’ve spent so much time working, waiting and praying for the next “thing” to happen that I’ve become blind to the present. Blind to the life I’m living right now. More than that, when something does happen that’s not on my radar, I’m quick to dismiss it. IT’S JUST NOT PART OF THE PLAN, or so I tell myself.
Recently, an incredible opportunity fell into my lap that is completely unrelated to the job search. It came at a very defeating moment (rejection) yet I was hesitant to accept it because of my current situation. Guilt was the main emotion, but confusion and uncertainty also came into play. How do I know what I’m supposed to do? Is this part of my “everything happens for a reason?” Can I Google this?
I may be confused about literally EVERYTHING in life (obvious much?), but I do have faith in God’s plan for me. And while I can’t say for certain that God’s “bigger plan” involves me going on a last-minute trip to Italy (tomorrow), I also can’t deny the incredible opportunity. Yes, you read that right. I’m going to Italy for one week!
Long story short (for now): last month I was in the final stage of interviews for a big time “dream job” when my cousin invited me on a family trip to Italy. If I had gotten the job, I wouldn’t have been able to go on the trip due to the intended start date. I got the rejection call two weeks ago and booked flights soon after. Some consolation prize, huh? Setting a high standard for the next big “no” lol…
My health/job/foot problems will still be here when I return next week, but to ignore the fortunate circumstance would be, well, crazy. As someone who has ALWAYS been a Point A to Point B person, I’m learning that the journey is equally, if not more important than the outcome. *Repeats previous line to self because it’s so damn important* Furthermore, I believe Point B will continue to evolve and grow as I continue to evolve and grow. Instead of viewing the middle as the roadblock, I want to start viewing it as life. A life that is happening for me, not to me. I may not like what happens all the time, but I’m trying to see things in a new light.
With that, I say arrivederci! This will be my second time in Italy but first time in Tuscany (aside from a cruise stop in Florence). I hope to get up a post or two while I’m there, but follow along on Instagram. Full recap, details, etc. to come!
*Linking up to Thinking Out Loud*