About two months ago I wrote this post (click to read) about transitioning back to college after an incredible summer. A quick summary for new readers…transitions have always been hard for me, even this (my senior!) year. I like routine and anything new throws me for a loop. That doesn’t mean I don’t do new things, it just sometimes takes more effort and energy than I’d like it to. A reader suggested I write a follow-up post a few months down the line; I put a reminder in my phone that day. That reminder went off this week, so here I am with a quick update.
When I wrote that post I remember feeling really lost. In a funk, almost. I counted down the days and just wanted to get through. If we’re being honest (always) I still do count down the days to an extent but only because I have so many exciting things coming up. Somewhere in the last two months I fell into a groove. What I wrote about in that post happened, even though I couldn’t picture it then. I got into a routine and once classes picked up, things felt normal. Of course I get homesick (still do) but it doesn’t affect my every day. I WISH there was a concrete turning point or moment but it was just time passing. That’s a reminder for me to never set a timeline for things in life. Things will happen when they happen.
Just like my most recent transition from marathon training to not running or cardio-ing (go with it), all types of change take some mental strength. I’m not one to blatantly say “stay positive” and “look at the bright side,” because that stuff is hard for me. I try, but I’m not always successful.
However, there are a few things that HAVE helped me:
- Giving myself a grace period for adjusting
- Leaning on my support system
- Thinking back on past changes/transitions and determining what helped then
The last two months have been filled with highs and low, some of which I haven’t shared here. And now, I’m less than two months away from graduation and mentally, emotionally and physically preparing for my next transition…life after college. There’s such a thing?! Although there will be some buffer time (yay) I still think about my future constantly. It’s a brand new challenge and I’m working on letting go of my self-imposed expectations. More on that soon…